A Little Reflection

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." - Ephesians 2:10

In the past few weeks God has been revealing so much to me and growing me. At first I was a little overwhelmed but after getting through that phase it was awesome. I'm so joyful and excited about God and everything He's doing. Especially in my life. He's been teaching me a lot about surrendering to Him, His sovereignty, and just following Him the way He calls us to. What I believe He's calling me to right now seems crazy, but then again God is pretty crazy right? In everything, I am confident in God. At the same time, with everything He's throwing at me I still think, "Why me?" It's like Isaiah in chapter 6. I feel like such an unworthy servant, definitely undeserving of Him and His blessings. But it's also amazing how He still chose me.

I'm going to be on the other side of the world in exactly a month, about a week in India and another week in Ethiopia, from June 26 to July 11. It's a huge blessing to have this opportunity, to do His work and serve. I also look forward to seeing how the Church functions in other parts of the world. I can't wait to see everything He will reveal to me through this because I'm sure He will blow my mind. I'm excited about it but at the same time it's a sobering feeling. I'm going to see the realities of other parts of the world. Living here in the States, it's easy to forget about that because we have so much. I'm sure those two weeks will be completely different from our daily lives here. I hope to soak in everything about the experience.

I know God is preparing me heart for this, and everything else He has prepared for me. It's crazy because I still don't know exactly what God has planned for me, but He's revealed some things to me and I'm excited because I know He's calling me to something greater, as He does for all of us. My desire is to pursue Him, and in doing that I know He will lead me where He wants me. I expect it to be tough, but I pray all the time for Him to make me willing.

"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?
And I said, 'Here am I. Send me!'" - Isaiah 6:8

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