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Love me

One more time

Kiss me

Into the day

Hug me

Home

Press your head into me

Let me feel the cold of your nose

Pin me down with your paws and don’t let me leave

Let’s take a nap

Go ahead

Curl at my feet

Take up all the space

We can get out of bed slow

Whenever you’re ready

We’ll play like tomorrow wasn’t knocking

Tug of war, or chew up whatever you want, or tag in the street

Let’s go for a walk

As long as you want to go

One more time

Make me think forever possible


From the beginning, you were full of life

I remember when I first saw the blue in your eyes

And I felt my grip start to slip off this leash

I have been looking for a language

To describe how longing interrupts joy

How time has become my greatest nemesis

As broken as this home was

I never knew how empty it could be

Without your welcome

Without your nails tapping on the tiles

Without your sniffs and sneezes

Or your snores and farts

Without your bark

And your smile, in all it’s radiance

Everything you touched became light

And you conquered every part of this place

I still call your name..


There are days

When the world seems eager to swallow me whole

When the world feels impossible
You were always by my side

You saw into me with your precious eyes

As if there was nothing else

Sometimes I might be wind

And sometimes I might be wave

But you were always rock

There to sink into me

Like nothing else mattered


Listen, baby,

Your heart never failed us

It was too big because 

Love was all you knew

It beat to a different rhythm

And that’s what brought the color into our lives

Your presence sang Heaven

The warmth of your soul

Always enough


I know you’re still waiting for me to come home

It might take a little longer this time

Don’t worry, I’m right behind you

We’re gunna be okay

You gave us everything

You can rest now..

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