Humbled

"'Woe to me!'...For I am a man of unclean lips..." - Isaiah 6:5

Every day I remind myself how unworthy I am of God's love. Even last night, as I was reflecting on my past, I was disgusted. It's so crazy what God has done in my life and is still doing. I am blessed beyond belief. Now, I'm about to take a big step. I've been blessed with such a great opportunity to do His work. I'm humbled by it because I know I am so undeserving of it. I just graduated high school, barely starting college, and only 17. Yet, God has put me in such a position of leadership. This is a huge commitment, but I'm ready for it. Not by myself, but by the Spirit. That's the only way I'll be able to do this. I know He will continue to work in my heart and prepare it so that I'm able to do this. I don't know what He sees in me, but I trust Him. I'm excited and I look forward to being a part of what He's doing. It's time to step it up. As high as a standard as I set myself, I know He calls me to an even higher standard. I need to pursue Him more. I really want to put what I have into this and be pleasing to Him. It's not a matter of what I want. His will, not mine. It has to be by the Spirit if this is to be fruitful. Man, it's just amazing how He's brought me to this point. And it's all by His grace. My cup overflows and I am filled with joy just to be able to do His work. It's awesome just thinking about it. Praise God!


"And I said, 'Here am I. Send me!'" - Isaiah 6:8

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