Overwhelmed

"When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?" - Psalm 8:3-4

There are times when I just think, "Who am I?" When I spend time with God in prayer and I'm about to ask for something for myself, I think about how much I don't deserve anything. Too often, I think I'm important or want attention or think what I've done deserves something.  But in reality, I'm just a sinful man. I fall and turn my back on God every day when I disobey Him. And the conviction from the Spirit weighs pretty heavily on me. Yet, "neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38). Through it all, He loves me the same.

God is so amazing, He doesn't make sense! I think about how great He is in comparison to me and it's just crazy. This is the dude who created the universe and everything in it, which is ridiculously complex, and He is ever greater than that! And being as big and powerful as He is, He still cares about each and every one of us individually, loving us the same. He knows us more than we think we know ourselves. Read Psalm 139, please. On top of this and so much more, Jesus died for us. Take time to think about that. We are nothing compared to Him. I can't even imagine the pain He had to bear, and despite the commitment we give Him, He went through it. An unconditional love, grace that covers all our sin, and mercy. I really can't grasp it because it just doesn't make sense.

Who am I to deserve all this? He blesses me so much and allows me to come before Him despite all my junk. It's so overwhelming. I don't understand it, but man, do I appreciate it. It's so hard to put into words how I feel about this. Please open yourself up to God so you can know what I'm talking about. It's incredible.

"Therefore stand in awe of God." - Ecclesiastes 5:7

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